i feel the need to write.

so six years a go today, my gma died. ever since then, especially when my other gma died, my life has been full of ups and downs, mostly ups. so every year on this day for the past 3 years, i’ve made a list of my accomplishments. accomplishments i would share with my grandmothers if they were still with me. with everyday that passes, i wish they were here just to see how far i’ve come from my 9 year old self. i want to know more than anything if they are proud of the person i have and am becoming. so here are my accomplishments. since i can’t share them with my gmas, i’ll share them with you.

4th grade–discovered my extreme passion and love for music, all kinds of it.
6th grade–started the long road called middle school.
7th grade–wrote and “recorded” first song, started playing guitar.
7th grade–knew what i wanted to do with my life.
8th grade–“graduated” from middle school, got my heart broken, and got over it.
8th grade–admitted my problems, started working on them.
8th grade–realized who my true friends were.
8th grade–discovered that i really am all i’ll ever need, and i dont need to prove anything to anyone.
8th grade–THREE MONTHS
9th grade–started high school.

it may seem like “wow, these are her so called accomplishments?” but every single one of these has a huge impact on my life. i wish i could share these with two of the most important women in my life, but i cant. so here they are. my life accomplishments so far. not many, and they may not seem important to you, but two me, they have helped make me the person i am today. and if you dont like that person, who cares? i like who i am, and i hope my gmas do too.

RIP nana–8.23.35-1.13.01
RIP grandma–10.14.30-7.10.03
i miss you more than anyone. i love you.